Giving Up

I am in the depths of despair. I have been trying to stop overeating for my entire adult life and lately it’s been horrible. I have tried the Stop Overeating program, attempt number one million. I feel like I’d rather die than continue in this viscous cycle. I feel like there’s no hope. What is the point of getting up again? My mind is such a painful place to live in.. how is it possible I could ever truly change?