Good bye, past!


Hi Brooke!
Ever since you told me to “Be willing to be uncomfortable. Be willing to be authentic in a group.” I’ve been trying on for size some new thoughts like:
– I feel vulnerable when I’m authentic and it’s ok.
– What if I were wrong when thinking I’m vulnerable when I’m authentic?
– I’m willing to be authentic all the time.
– Maybe I can be authentic all the time.
– I intend to be authentic all the time.
– Very soon, I’ll manage to be authentic all the time.
– I’m authentic most of the time (which is already true – I’ve got lots of evidence!).
– I’m becoming someone who’s always authentic.
– I’m learning to always be authentic.
– I’m more and more authentic by the minute.
– With all the efforts I put in, I can’t avoid being authentic all of the time very soon.
Still, it bothers me to eat cakes when I’m surrounded with my grand-mother or parents when I can perfectly go without the rest of the time. It occurred to me that my parents and grand-mother saw me grow up and I expect myself not to change in their presence, to always remain the same little girl. My unintentional thougth pattern seems to be like this:
C – neither sugar nor flour even with my parents and grand-mother
T – I’m abandoning the little girl I was who liked cakes so much!
F – sad
A – I keep on eating the cakes even if I’m no longer hungry.
R – I’m not happy with myself, so I stay sad and I don’t grow thanks to this experience – therefore, I’m still that little girl.
So here’s my intentional thought pattern:
C – neither sugar nor flour even with my parents and grand-mother
T – I make my own decisions, like a grown-up who’s evolved over the (42!) years.
F – proud
A – I don’t eat sugar and flour any more.
R – I feel free to be myself.
You said questions didn’t belong to the T line. Is it the same for exclamations? And can I use a feeling in the R line (that’s the trickiest line for me)?
Thanks a lot! Have a great day!
Nan