Grief Model

I’m struggling with how to do a model on any feelings related to grief. My husband was killed at work 6 months ago. I have a 15 month old son. Life is tough and heavy most days. I’m finding that when I go to do an intentional model, I get stuck. I’m not sure how to rework the grief thoughts for better thoughts. Literally nothing comes up.

Should I be focusing on even changing the grief thoughts now, or what would you recommend?