Help! I Am Feeling So Low

I would like to lose weight. I have been on this journey for my whole life. The last few years I finally saw the light at the end of the tunnel when I found coaching and now I have twice come very close to my goal weight, but in the last few months I have put all the weight back on.  I have a thought that being overweight makes me a bad person. I know this thought is toxic, but I just can’t stop the overeating! I can’t seem to sit with my discomfort anymore and all I do is eat and eat. I feel like a failure because I have all the best tools and STILL can’t do it. I keep trying to commit and failing at my commitment. I feel hopeless. I’m indulging in useless thoughts and feelings and can’t seem to turn it around.