Help me out on my “wanna be” model, please


Current model:
c- my son was brain injured while on a volunteer service stay in a foreign country
t- shouldn’t have happened, those in charge of the organization neglected him, they are to blame, waste of my son’s life when he was generously giving
f- grief, pain, loss of hope for my son’s future, frustration at the loss of my future
a- pull away from the organization and those in charge, even though they are central part of my community and social life
r- isolated, disconnected from people in my community

My “wanna be” model:
c- my son was brain injured while on a volunteer service stay in a foreign country
t- these things happen on planet earth, people are just people and make mistakes
f- neutral, not so blaming
a- get involved in community and organization again
r- trust the organization and the leaders again (whoa, don’t know if I can do that)

Thank you, Brooke!
p.s. I am losing weight and have my food into control!