Help with a model

I have a model I need help with. I am trying to discover why I refuse to weigh myself (in pursuit of my weight loss goal). I want to weigh 135 – currently somewhere around 155. I am unsure about the C line.
C: ?
T: The number on the scale will be unacceptable.
F: Shame
A: I don’t weigh, I ruminate about how my clothes fit, what my belly feels like, I’m less precise about my food plan, I don’t assess the previous day’s plan. I am more unconscious about the process.
R: I probably gain weight but am unsure.

Thanks in advance.