Help With My Model

I realize that my thought download since many months are not complete because I am afraid to look on one thought.

C : my boyfriend,
T: maybe is not the one for me
F : fear
A: observing him to search evidence he is for me
R : I find no signs he is for me so he is not for me.

IM :
C: my boyfriend,
T : maybe he is exactly the one for me
F: peace ;
A: finding evidence that he is for me as he is
R: he is for me.

I want to shift for unconditional love but what do you think about it? Thank you for your help !