Help with new thought- physical affection


My goal this month is to develop the belief that I love physical affection and I want to be physically affectionate with my husband. I have a history of sexual abuse and other issues that cause me to become very anxious when it comes to physical affection. Some sentences I’ve come up with are “It’s possible for me to love physical affection” “I want to be physically affectionate towards my husband”. Can you help me brainstorm some other thoughts

C- physical affection with my husband
T (current)- I don’t like this, please stop
F (current)- anxious
A (current)- pull/push away
R (current)- feel guilty and unloving

C- physical affection with my husband
T (new)- ????
F (new)- relaxed
A (new)- lean in and reciprocate
R- (new)- happy, content, loved and loving