Help with R Line

Please could you help me with the R line in my model?

C – guy I’m seeing denies my request to come over and see me because he has to wake up early for work the next day
T – I really wanted to see him tonight
F – upset
A – keep looking at phone hoping he might change his mind. buffer with food which is not on my protocol. cry. feel annoyed with him. think about reducing my communication with him. go to bed early.
R – I upset myself?

I recognize that I was in emotional childhood and handing over responsibility for my feelings. I am now able to see that I don’t do well with what my brain perceives to be rejection from another person. Looking at this with curiosity I can see that I was making it mean something about me. That he didn’t want to be with me. That I wasn’t enough.