Help with R line

I have a corporate job where I work in communication. Yesterday I was recognized for the work I did in 2021. I was totally surprised when it was announced in a big meeting. I noticed, after the meeting I wasn’t feeling good. I felt stressed and I craved food and sugar. I kept thinking: “If they would know that I’m not that good. If they would know how I really am…” So I did a model but I am struggling with my R.

C:I received an internal award for the work in 2021
T: I’m not good enough to get awarded for my work
F: uncomfortable
A: buffer with food, I don’t tell anyone I have received this recognition, I turn red when people congratulate, don’t really know how to answer, try to play it down.
R: ?

Thank you so much for your help.