Help with this model on men

When I was in the 4th grade, I saw boys chasing other girls on the playground but they never chased me. So I decided “the boys don’t like me.” I remember that moment as clear as day and I’ve lived my life from this perspective.

Unintentional Model
C: Men
T: The boys don’t like me
F: Unloveable
A: Hide, avoid men, date from feeling unworthy or not good enough
R: Single

Intentional Model (started with the R line)
C: Men
T: Love is possible for me.
F: Determined
A: open to love, receptive, letting men in, making eye contact, being social, doing inner work
R: Meeting my soulmate and getting engaged in 1 year.

I’d love any other perspective on shifting this thought I’ve held since I was 9. Thank you!