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C. Colleague group texts “looking forward to seeing you tomorrow”
T. It doesn’t serve me to go and she’s making me feel bad
F. Annoyed
A. I don’t reply. I question myself. I think about compromising and at least going next week or until I have a solid “reason” to actually stop. I get disappointed that I’m not keeping my word to myself to stop now and fully focus on CCP. I worry that I’m going off track. I spin in indecision. I don’t stay true to being decisive and following my own path in coaching now. I tell myself I’m wrong, bad, going to lose out or miss out. That I’ll regret it. I stop the flow of the good coaching and thought work that I’ve been doing. I stop feeling so proud of or recognising the identity shift I’d been starting to notice.
R. I don’t serve myself and I make myself feel bad.