Herpes : HSV 1 & HSV 2

I feel so stupid. How did I get over 40 thinking herpes 1 was a “cold sore”. I’ve had it from childhood. It can be spread to more than the lips.

Herpes 2 isn’t part of the routine “test me for everything”. Why didn’t I know the medial community test for HSV 1 & 2 when you have symptoms or request it specifically?

I finally have an opportunity to fall in love with a great man and I have this. He’s from my hometown. I have to disclose this disease. I’m super angry because I wasn’t promiscuous in my 20s or 30s. I spent years celibate to end up here.

My thoughts are to sabotage the relationship now to prevent having to disclose. I’m so sad.

I don’t know if I even want a response. I just needed to tell someone.