Hope and Infertility

I need help with the concept of letting go of hope because I really feel like hope is all I have. I have secondary infertility and the docs say there is no way I will get pregnant. I don’t want to accept that. If I let go of hope, what do I have? Sometimes I even think about moving to acceptance, but deep down, what I really mean is: if I accept this, maybe a miracle will happen. So this is basically hope disguised as acceptance. I know there are other options for bringing a child to our family, but what I really long for is the whole experience of pregnancy, therefore, changing hope to commitment to another way of expanding our family feels wrong. At the same time, hoping for a miracle feels like a waste of energy as I know that hope doesn’t really change anything. Is my hope more like faith? Is faith as unproductive as hope? Help!