How Come This Thought Feels Terrible?

My parents are aging and live in another country.
My father fell few times recently and they were unable to receive an aide at home.
Today I got a call and my mom tried to lift my dad, fell herself and broke two toes.

The thought that came to me was: I wish I had the money and could afford hiring help for them.

This thought, when I read it, seems like a beautiful thought to have. It has words like wish, afford, and help.

How come it feels so terrible when I think it?