My parents are aging and live in another country.
My father fell few times recently and they were unable to receive an aide at home.
Today I got a call and my mom tried to lift my dad, fell herself and broke two toes.

The thought that came to me was: I wish I had the money and could afford hiring help for them.

This thought, when I read it, seems like a beautiful thought to have. It has words like wish, afford, and help.

How come it feels so terrible when I think it?