How do I not be so hard on myself


I feel like i’m so busy nit-picking what is wrong with me I don’t focus on any positives – I went out with friends last week – felt fat and self – conscious – then I saw a picture of me and I looked really good (I thought). Then I wonder what is up with all this unnecessary chatter of picking on myself when everything is fine?! Its like I’m making my goal of losing 10lbs impossible since I keep saying its too hard, I cant do it…
I’m not far from where I want to be – yet on a day to day basis I think of how heavy, big, unattractive I am – then I beat myself up for not being compassionate to myself – how do I get out of this cycle and actually start thinking I’m lovable and worthy?