I wrote in a few days ago (How to Enjoy Being You Day 1) with some model help and I liked the suggestions I got. I struggled again in day 2 and today and would like some more guidance. I keep feeling like my models are lifeless and I’m not getting much out of them and I want to! I got a lot out of what was given to me when I wrote in the other day. Though I think I would like to feel frustrated about pollution on the trails, but because I saw another model, I was curious what could be more useful than frustration there. Ultimately, I would like the world to be clean (and other people to care because I don’t think it’s my job to clean up after them, hence my frustration).
In terms of Day 3, I am feeling stuck similarly with the models. I picked a few judgements I made and put them into the model. I’ve changed their name here just in case someone knows me/them in scholars haha:
C My ex says “If we get to” in response to me wanting to go to the beach with him and hoping he will say he wants that too
T He should change his thinking and be able to admit to wanting me
A ask him why he can’t just say he wants it/pick an argument, (even though I understand his situation being deported is hard for him to imagine a future)
R argue with him
Hmm this one feels hard to explain. I didn’t really care that I was arguing with him because it was a repeat of the same history for us, which I think I’ve grown numb to, but I do think I have to dig feelings out of him because he doesn’t usually say what his face is expressing to me. I try to take people’s words, but I struggle with that when I think I can read their facial expressions and feel what’s going on (Empath). So I think he wants me again but because he’s deported, he doesn’t believe he’s worthy of me and doesn’t believe 100% that he will see me again. So therefore, doesn’t say he wants me. I get frustrated because I want to hear that from him and I want to see him believe in a better future and am tired of fighting for him (He was my ex for 2 years before getting deported, but his deportation reconnected us and I think he sees my value now, but still won’t talk much about it). >_<
Anyways, I tried another with a different person:
C Mike makes a comment like “It’s just a dog, you know?” when ex’s dog dies
T Mike should be more empathetic
A think about how I don’t like him
R ? Feel annoyed? (but this is a feeling so I am confused)
I also tried
A Hang out with him less often
R peace of mind
But I don’t think either of these are right? Can feelings be in the result line?