How to …?

I very much concentrate on scarcity – I know exactly how to do it and I can’t enjoy life.
I know how to save. I know how to live from salary to salary.
I know very well how to survive, but I can’t enjoy and expand.
I’m ALWAYS in some sort of fear – I always make savings if I can, I don’t buy extra stuff, so I’m very extra about surviving and basic needs only with no enjoyment with no luxury.
I’m all about savings and basic needs.
How do I get to a new level? Level of Expansion Enjoyment and Luxury?