This was posed as a question to my last post about the scale (my thoughts about it) making me crazy.
In an ideal world, I would really like to feel completely free from the numbers on the scale. I’d like to feel as though I accept that my body weight fluctuates on a daily basis for a variety of reasons, and this is totally not a problem for me. I have no drama around the scale at all. But, at the same time, I want the scale to say certain numbers. So, it’s almost as if wanting the scale to be certain numbers is in opposition to wanting to have no drama around it. I don’t know how those two seemingly opposing things can exist in harmony.
How can I care about the number on the scale while also having no drama around it?
I would guess that kind of comes down to what I’m making the number on the scale mean.
1×6 = I’m slipping
1×8 = I’ve finally made it and can accomplish anything
This is why I have drama around the scale, I would venture to guess.
If I stopped making these digits mean these things, I could eliminate the drama.
I need a more neutral thought about the scale, at least. It’s hard, though, because I’m so attached to the numbers and what I make them mean. But maybe that’s my gateway thought?
C: Digits on scale
T: I’m so attached to the numbers and what I make them mean
A: I continue thinking the same thought I’ve always had and making them mean the same things. I try to change the thought and fail.
R: I reinforce my beliefs around the scale
Maybe I can leave the numbers themselves out of it, and work with my attachment to the numbers in general. Something like:
I’m so attached to the numbers and what I’ve made them mean (starting thought)
***It’s possible that I don’t HAVE to make those numbers mean what I’ve made them mean in the past, regardless of how I feel in the moment***
Other people in the world would think wildly different things about the numbers than I do, so they’re not an absolute fact
I have a lot of programming around what these numbers mean and that’s okay – I’ve been programmed by diet culture
I’m willing to believe that I can make the numbers on the scale mean something entirely different – whatever I want
I used to have really negative thoughts about the numbers on the scale
I am a person who used to have negative thoughts every time she stepped on the scale, and now I never feel that way
Some of these actually feel believable, especially the one I ***’ed
C: Digits on the scale
T:***It’s possible that I don’t HAVE to make those numbers mean what I’ve made them mean in the past, regardless of how I feel in the moment***
A: I relax into the numbers. I am open to the possibility that my thought about the numbers is a choice. I am open to the possibility that I could choose something different around this neutral circumstance. I feel the way I feel without judging myself.
R: I find new ways to think about the numbers on the scale
That’s actually really helpful. Just poking a hole in the idea that my thought is a fact, and that I can legit choose something different feels very open to possibility. I think I need to use this thought in like, a hundred different areas of my life!!! Basically, any time I feel stuck – it’s possible I don’t have to make xyz mean what I’ve always made it mean. This is amazing!
Open to any and all feedback 🙂