I have made the decision to apply for The Life Coach School coaching program in November. I am so excited about it, I think I could bust. I am actively preparing my life to support my success and needed time commitment. For the first time in my life (I’m 53), I am gifting myself a year alone to work on me, (believe me, it’s a full time job).

Currently, I am ending a relationship of three years that is not healthy for me. It does not support what I know is best for me and my life. This human was told to find other living accommodations, but is not taking action on leaving. This causes the thought: “It’s my fault.” My model looks like this:

C: A human lives in my house.
T: I want my year alone to start. I’m so excited to start this journey! I need the time and space, but my human is not taking steps to move out. I have made it very “comfortable” for them to stay. It’s my fault.
F: Frustrated. Anxious.
A: Buffer, Avoid Addressing it, Buffer, Work, Buffer
R: Nothing gets done, I allow my boundaries to be walked all over and I don’t do what I said I’d do.

I had a big aha! moment. In the R line, I wrote: “I allow my boundaries to be walked all over and I don’t do what I said I’d do.” This triggered such a big emotion in me that I asked myself, “where did that yucky feeling come from?” I recognized that I was feeling a feeling and because I am obsessed with thought work, I knew that the feeling had to come from a thought… like in the moment! So cool.

Anyway, the thought (that is actually a belief) is , “I just could never hurt anyone.” Mind blown. Gamechanger. I have a model that leads to another model and on and on times infinity? Is it a never-ending rabbit hole? One model just opens another one that I just have to uncover?

Should I just follow where my brain takes me? If so, then no dream is too big and the sky is big enough for everyone to fly.