Husband drunk in the morning


This is a common occurrence in my house.
I wake up to go to work on a Saturday morning and my husband is still awake and drinking from the night before.
He wants to engage in nonsensical conversation or he is laughing at his own jokes.
I feel disgusted and annoyed. I have repeatedly requested that he doesn’t do this on my working weekends but he continues and it’s clear that this is going to keep happening.
I am working to live in harmony with this situation.

C husband Saturday morning
T I can’t respect someone that acts like that
F Disgusted
A I resent his actions, I replay those moments, I indulge in self pity, I get angry, I look at him with disgust and I say mean things to him
R I am not respecting our marriage. I am not respecting my own peace as I replay this for long after it has ended.

I used to drink heavily too and when we got together we drank heavily together. I know a lot of other people that I still respect when they get drunk. So I realize that him being drunk could be neutral.

I think the issue here is that on a Saturday morning I am already feeling sorry for myself that I have to go to work. I feel that I need to be very serious and ‘prepare myself for the day’. So I am already grim and feeling self pity before I even interact with him.
Also, I have a belief or thought that people shouldn’t stay up all night drinking by themselves. It seems like a lot of people would agree with me about that (although I know it’s not fact) so I have this kind of moral high ground feeling (self righteousness?) that also affects my thoughts and feelings about him.

Now that he is sober and his normal self I am still replaying the morning in my head and feeling irritated and repelled.
I wish I could feel love and amusement instead, considering I have no way of changing his behavior.
But also I guess I feel I must continue to judge and disapprove of it because I think its fundamentally wrong.
I apologize that I keep posting about this topic. I am making headway with each coaching session and question answered and my marriage is becoming happier because of it.