I can’t keep my promise to myself

How can I stay in “vibration” and keep my mind managed? I have a great few days then spinouts. Since my divorce I keep buffering. I can’t keep my morning ritual I used to keep so well. I can’t get myself to stick to anything but quitting right now. And I have big goals that excite me, I’ve even made them more realistic so I feel more at ease about them, still stretched but less scary. So, why aren’t I doing anything? I feel I’m letting myself and my girls down.