I can’t stay still long enough to recognize my emotions.

I am trying to understand my feelings; I find myself often being impatient with myself. I have the tendency to want to do a lot at once, which in return, I don’t get much done, I do more buffering than anything else. I am trying to be still and be curious, be kind to myself, and not be so judgmental. I want to understand the reason for this annoying feeling of not being able just to be, to welcome my feeling so I can get help.