I was about to start this off by saying that I don’t know what I want, but that’s not true. I don’t think what I want is possible and I have a million reasons why. Can somebody help me see how I can begin to untangle this?

1. I want a thriving coaching / therapy practice.

Obstacle thoughts:
It’s too hard to get consistent clients.
I already have a good stable job.
I can’t buy real estate to get financial freedom if I have a new business.
I need a bigger safety net.
I don’ t want to hurt myself financially in a really bad way.
I don’t have a clear niche.
I should wait to see if my online course sells and I can get some passive income.
If this doesn’t work out I need a backup hobby.
I need to have really good investments in case this fails.
What if I don’t even like coaching?
What if I’m lonely working from home?
How will I meet guys if I work from home?
I’ll lose my awesome network of people from work.
What if I don’t make any money?

2. I want location independence

How will I find a boyfriend if I don’t have a stable place?
I need a flexible job.
But a flexible job will make me work too many hours for less money than I make now (with no location freedom).
I want to buy real estate in these different places but I can’t unless I have a stable job.

3. I want to make $300K

I currently make $300k but have no location freedom.
I can take a pay cut and have location freedom.
Or I can start my own business but see all the obstacle thoughts for #1.

4. I want a husband who I love and who is also hot.

I don’t want to be stuck in his location near his family – I want to live near mine.
I don’t want to be stuck in a location for his job.
I don’t want to be the breadwinner.
I’m running out of time to have kids.
I don’t want a guy who lives in the city I currently live in.
But there aren’t enough guys if I move home.
I don’t want to be bound to anything because of his stupid job.
I’m not even dating here because I want to move.
But I can’t move and keep the same income I have now.
I could take a remote job.
But then I’d have to work too much for less money.

This is what is spinning around in my head, and it’s just the beginning of it. How do I begin to dismantle this and get the life I dream of?