I don’t know how to be happy

I randomly will think to myself “I don’t know how to be happy” in response to hard moments I’m experiencing in my life.

So IF I put myself in the C line feeling perplexed about a client, or overwhelmed with work, my T is that “I just don’t know how to be happy – I’m always miserable”

And so my question is, I have a lot of negative thoughts… and I know this is okay and part of the 50/50, but then when I have the judgmental “I don’t know how to be happy thought!” I can see it’s a thought, but it feels like an observation of the truth, that I AM always unhappy. And that within each circumstance I’m existing, I’m thinking negatively and feeling overwhelmed and stressed.

When I notice I’m judging my judgmental thoughts, I stop judging, and shift into TRUST where I tell myself I am safe and it is okay. But even this feels, bleh.

I say I want to feel joy and happiness in my life, but I don’t know what that FEELS like. I can try and THINK happy thoughts and create moments in my day where I try to be happy, but it feels like something is off – another thought…