It has taken me 5 months to find the thought to my overeating… “I don’t matter”
I was finally able to stop and see I wasn’t hungry and that I am buffering with food to try and stuff that feeling of sadness down.
I can stop and talk to myself before I eat it and I know I am not hungry and sometimes I really don’t even want to eat it, but eat it anyway to fill the hole and avoid the feeling.
I try to sit with sadness and feel it but it can last days…. I try to hide I am feeling down from my family by going to bed early or having loooong naps or avoiding people. When “feeling the feeling” and being around people… they will ask me “what’s wrong?” “Are you ok?”
I can’t seem to let it go…
Probably because it’s a thought I have used for years and hadn’t really even know it…
I haven’t been able to find a thought that I can believe…
Anything is appreciated!