I don’t want my dad to come over


I investigated why I feel like I’ll be doing a lot of buffering/overeating this weekend and found some stuff that makes it make sense.

P.S. I’m a Diamond Scholar and I’m breaking the rules with the C line of the first model, I’m aware lol 😂.

Phase 1: (self judgment model)
C: I invited my dad over for the weekend even though I don’t really want him to come
T: I should want to want to have my dad over (and should also enjoy it).
F: Disappointed
A: Judge myself for not wanting to have my dad over, and judge myself for not wanting to want him over
R: I don’t have a good weekend.

Phase 2: (the model under the self judgment model)
C: I invited my dad over for the weekend
T: I don’t really want him to come over
F: Guilty (maybe shame, maybe disappointed)
A: Still have him over, not tell him the truth, not tell myself the truth
R: I people please my dad