I feel like I’ve been dealing with a lot of the negative side of 50/50 lately. I miss my 16-year-old son who moved out recently. I just spend a week helping my parents who both have dementia. My 13-year-old daughter has made some unsafe choices lately. On top of it all, I’ve gained weight and have heavy work commitments.

UM:
C: I have agreed (in signed contracts with the government) to complete 224 h of billable work by March 31.
T: I have nothing to look forward to
F: dread
A: overeat, overdrink, overdesire food, overdesire alcohol, complain, look for evidence that I am suffering, look for evidence that my billable work is boring and unpleasant, ruminate about whether I will be able to meet my deadlines, have a grim demeanour
R: ?

IM:
C: I have agreed (in signed contracts with the government) to complete 224 h of billable work by March 31.
T: It’s possible that doing billable work doesn’t have to involve suffering {reaching for a ladder thought here}
F: willing
A: stick to my billable hours calendar protocol, allow urges, don’t buffer, look for evidence that my billable work is neutral, enjoy my free time, connect with my family when I am not working
R: work without drama

Any help you can offer is appreciated.