I know I can handle any emotion. I truly, truly know it.

However, I still make decisions to avoid it (e.g. bingeing) EVEN when I clearly know the future pain will be greater than the pain of sitting with a negative emotion. This feels like a very conscious choice for me to go into emotional childhood. I’m trying to choose not to be confused by this, but the answer hasn’t come to me yet.

When I ask questions here, I try to guess what you’ll say as a form of self-coaching. I’m guessing you’ll say I need to practice believing I can handle any emotion, but I really do think I believe that! I just would always rather feel it later. In that way, I assume this is really just procrastination of pain. I’ll keep working on it but would love any wisdom from experience!