I was telling an exciting story from my past to a group of close friends. Someone made an assumption about my role in the story and I said yes. This assumption made my story much more impressive. It was not true. As soon as the words came out of my mouth I was mortified. But I didn’t know how to reverse course. Immediately I thought if these people find out the truth I’ll be so embarrassed. And I think it would make them see me differently.
I know this is not the first time in my life I’ve enhanced my status in a story but not this blatant.
I’m trying to be more curious about what I did as opposed to beating myself up. But it’s challenging. I even played out the scenario of saying we were drinking and I misunderstood if it ever came up. That doesn’t make me feel any better about myself.
The irony is that I’ve lived a very big exciting life doing things most people never get to experience. I don’t need to enhance anything.
I feel very foolish and ashamed.