I NEED TO UNDERSTAND WHY I NEVER LEAVE MY HOUSE OR ANSWER CALLS?


THIS PROBLEM EXISTED BEFORE COVID. I TOOK THE MONEY ONE CLASS AND AM TRYING TO FOCUS ON JUST KEEPING MY CALENDAR.
I cannot stick to my calendar. I don’t go anywhere for errands, a walk, even to pick up my meds. I have developed social anxiety over the years, now with Covid social life not an issue, but I also don”t answer calls. I feel like I have become a total recluse. I limit my entries in my calendar BESIDE THE LCS AND SCS to DRs
appointments, but I am still canceling them. I need help, I don”t understand why I can’t get out no matter how much I need to go. I am severe back and neck pain and need MRIs,( canceled 3), as an example. I only put 2-3 medical appts in my weekly calendar, yet I do not honor myself and keep them. I also don’t answer the phone. I prefer texting, but many friends won’t put up with this anymore. I lost other friends for same reason, but don’t care.
i think I need serious coaching on this issue weekly.
I’d like a full hour, if possible.
Thank You very much.