I really dislike my life


UNINTENTIONAL MODEL
C=I live at home with my mother
T=I hate living here; this is an emotionally painful living in the house with her; I want her to be a different person; I cannot wait to move; I desperately want a different living situation
F=loathe
A=complain; look for another job; work on my business; look for temporary housing
R=wake up in a house I don’t want to be in

INTENTIONAL MODEL
C=I live at home with my mother
T=this is a temporary living situation; mom is doing the best she can; I will find a job and make enough money to move
F=satisfied
A=reconcile in my heart and mind this is my living situation; clean and purge my space so I can go when I am ready; network with people and “make” something happen
R=wake up in a house I don’t want to be in

I am stuck in my thoughts. I am consumed with NOT wanting to be here. It is an energy drain and I focus on what I don’t want. I keep looking at her and being disrespectful. I know better and yet I cannot find a thought that feels settled.