I should be more grateful


Unintentional Model
C My company sent me a gift for a trip I won, but I’m not going because I just resigned
T I should be more grateful
F Shame
A Work on models, beat myself up, criticize myself for not being more grateful, don’t fully allow myself to feel the emotion bc I’m reacting to it
R I don’t actually feel grateful

Ladder up:
I should be more grateful
I notice I keep thinking “I should be more grateful”
My brain keeps offering me the thought “I should be more grateful”
The thought “I should be more grateful” is just a thought in my mind
I couldn’t prove in a court of law that I should be more grateful
There are actually many ways that I DO feel grateful
I am grateful for the amazing people I’ve met, the opportunities I’ve had to see the country, the insane memories, and the opportunity to grow a career I never thought possible
I actually do feel grateful

I think, truthfully, I don’t want to feel the bittersweetness of leaving my career. I don’t like goodbyes or closed doors. But I can see this is another thought I can work with. Telling myself I don’t like goodbyes and closed doors keeps me resisting the sorrow of them, but it also keeps me from seeing the beauty of them, too. I can see that in this moment.

If I put my new thought into the T line:

C My company sent me a gift for a trip I won, but I’m not going because I just resigned
T I am grateful for the amazing people I’ve met, the opportunities I’ve had to see the country, the insane memories, and the opportunity to grow a career I never thought possible
F Grateful / bittersweet
A Make a list of who to thank and text tomorrow (last day)
R I express gratitude for the people who mattered in this chapter, and I honor what is true for myself, I feel my feelings

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