Identity shift

This might be so obvious, but it just dawned on me. I am Asian, 153cm tall. Pre baby I was 57kg. After baby I was 72kg. With intermittent fasting and being harsh on myself, I managed to get it down to 50kg – but this was not sustainable – this was intermittent fasting – and my fasting was 36 hrs, alternate days. Anyway, then I settled on 53kg which was sustainable and I was happy with – the same weight as I was when I was 15 years old. But slowly, I am creeping back to 58kg because I was just eating anything that is in front of me, cakes and all, and not following any intermittent fasting at all. And it’s because in my head, I am still an overweight person. And I am acting to prove that I am overweight, i.e. I am overeating.

C- body weight
T- I am always overweight.
A- overeating
R- I am overweight.

So the T has to change. I am open to the idea that I can be 53kg. I am open to the idea that I can be in the healthy Asian BMI (range is 42-53kg for my height). It’s like I need to give myself permission to be 53kg.