I’m really stretching, affording The SCS along with setting up coaching/consulting for Lefkoe Method work. I’m scared of not being able to make the money back.

I just thought I needed to write this when you said something like “if you think you can’t afford this, then you should be working on that”. My payments are going straight onto a credit card and getting me worried as they mount up – and because I am worried about finding people to coach who can pay enough. I have put a lot of money into the idea already, and to even make that back seems painfully distant. I know there are people who have gained tremendous skills in marketing and sales, and are successful inside of a year. I’ve spent an entire 3 years taking courses and practicing, but I don’t have what I consider enough skill. I also don’t have people in my circle of acquaintance who have enough money and/or interest in being coached. I think I’m a wonderful person, but that isn’t always enough to be helpful to someone else.
I’m fortunate enough to have a Mentor, Anne Lieberman, who has taken me on with the idea of making me her Associate when I have gotten the certification for Lefkoe Consultant. I was so thrilled when she ‘picked’ me, but I’ve been hearing what she has to say for a year, and I don’t feel significantly better about the work I’m doing. It’s also a lot of work, as she has me writing her Newsletter articles every other month, and she is quite a task-master about writing. It takes me a huge amount of time which I work around my ‘day job’ of teaching online.
I’m also frightened to tell you the truth. I’m scared of taxes turning out to be too much, of having to get a business license, malpractice insurance, and do all the billing stuff. She (Anne) says it’s easy, but everything is easy once you know how to do it. Brain surgery is easy when you know how to do it, but if you don’t, it’s really hard. I have a persistent feeling that I’m not doing things right, that I’m wasting money on something that will never work. Of course, with the Model, that means I’m tentative and bound up in my ideas and marketing efforts. Plus, I can’t walk more than a few steps, even with my walker, so I have to be planning around my situation. I’ve been told to quit calling it a handicap, which is just fine, but it still hurts and I still am limited, and it still is wicked hard to get around and to do things. I just feel as if I’m being foolish and wasting my time and effort.