Impossible Goal

I’m wondering if my impossible goal can be a feeling. For example, I would like to lose 44 pounds this year, finish one year of doctoral degree in an accelerated program, and finish life coach certification. The impossible goal would be to find joy in doing challenging things using my thoughts. It really seems impossible to achieve AND find the joy in the doing. It seems like a fairy tale. What else could I consider? When I consider it as an impossible goal, I already feel joy and eagerness for trying. I also think, “I’m a crazy, creative badass.”