Impossible goal – again

I have been re-listening to Brooke’s impossible goal work. Honestly, I feel depressed. I did this last year and lost nothing – in fact, I have put on weight this year. I know I need to stop thinking about the past but really, I have been very overweight for a year, am now a VIP member and have failed again and again to lose weight. I drink too much. I plan food ahead of time and don’t stick to it beyond a couple of days. I was about to listen to Brooke and went off and ate chocolate. This causes me so much anxiety that I wonder if it’s worth it to try again. And what is trying when I self sabotage so consistently? I am unhealthily overweight and I feel awful. Advice welcome, but please don’t say ‘change your thinking’!