I have been eating on and off protocol for a month now. I gave been doing my homework and practucing my March new belief “I weigh 130pounds.”
My actions are so out of integrity with that thought that I find myself desiring to binge more than ever, beat myself up, and then try again…the cycle continues on.
I want to break free from this cycle. I know what my thoughts are and the new thought I want to think, but it isn’t showing up in my actions. This feels awful and this is normally where I say Fuck it, which leads to indifference, and then I really don’t eat on protocol.
How do I get out of this horrible cycle?