Is beating up oneself part of the 50/50 experience?


Hello coach,
Is beating up oneself part of the 50/50 experience?
Is it going to always happen or can I definitely stop it? And if yes, how?
My answer is: coaching myself regularly, be aware of it, have a lot of compassion and it will take some time and never completely stop,
but I would be glad if you had a more radical answer.
Why? Because I badly want to stop. I can see that I have to allow for it to stop, but still, I am curious if it is possible to be completely rid of that behavior. Being completely rid of the self-loathing emotion that causes these actions…
I can see where my question is not serving me, but I would be grateful for a little bit of teaching around it.
Thank you.