Is this normal for a beginner?


I’ve had some conversations recently, and I’ve realized some things while doing my thought downloads. I apparently believe that people shouldn’t repeat the same story to me more than twice. I also struggle with people who complain. What I’ve realized is I’m trying to control people in my own way. I call it encouragement, but it isn’t. I know that my thoughts aren’t me, but I’m not liking what I’m seeing so I’m working on having more compassion for myself and others. I’m thankful that I’m becoming aware of a lot of things, but it’s uncomfortable and terrifying, and sometimes I question…everything. Do scholars who are attempting to do this work experience this? Is this an early in the journey thing that eventually passes, or am I going to experience this off and on forever or as long as I’m learning. I have a feeling it’s going to be option 2.:)