Hi! I am working on redirecting my thoughts towards watching and learning after my weekend. I have been working on my eating protocol and drinking as well. I feel like I keep repeating the same mistakes when it comes to weekend behavior. Ex: I went out on Sat and my drink plan was to allow myself to drink four drinks but to focus on water in between. That did not happen and I was sick as a dog on Sunday. I feel this sense of urgency to figure this out because I get severely sick the next day. I have been know to vomit 5-8 times the next day. You would think that would be enough to get this under control but a month later I do the same thing over again. Anyway, I was sick on Sunday and over ate. This morning I woke up about four pounds heavier than where I ended last week. I am super frustrated with myself that I keep starting over!! So what? Here are my models.
C: Went out with friends on Saturday night.
T: You did it again! Drank too much, ate too much and are starting over!
F: Defeated
A: Fuck it, eat whatever but listen to an over drinking call, fill out the move on form so I feel like I am taking some action.
R: Gain weight, feel tired and become overwhelmed.

C: Went out with friends on Saturday night.
T: What could you do differently?
F: Get it together
A: Learn from my mistakes
R: Back on track
I am having trouble believing this model or that I will get out of this cycle. It would be one thing if I just starting trying to solve this problem but I have been working on these issues for a long time.
Thoughts?