Judging myself about not waking up early


When I woke up this morning and looked at my phone it was 3:53 AM and I thought, “Oh, it’s too early to get up now, I should sleep for another hour.” So I went back to sleep and slept for 1.5 hrs and got up around 5:25 AM. Then at that time, I thought, “Oh I should have gotten up earlier.”

And now my brain is judging me because I don’t have enough time to write that blog post that I said I wanted to write before going to work this morning. I notice how this thought, “I should have gotten up earlier,” has me feeling defeated and discouraged, and makes me feel even less inclined to write anything.

And then I had another thought that if I had done my Monday Hour One I wouldn’t have this problem because I would have scheduled in my writing time. I am noticing the link between just wanting something, as in thinking about what I would like to do, and then being committed to doing it by taking action towards it.

In my case, I had a thought that I would like to wake up early and write a blog post and expected that I would wake up early enough to do so. But where I fell down was in not making a commitment, that is, by planning to wake up early and setting an alarm to rise with the specific intention to get up and write. These are my thoughts about it.

I tried to create an unintentional model, with ‘Plan to write blog post’ in the Circumstance line but it didn’t work:
C – Plan to write a blog post
T – Write and post as soon as possible
F – ???
I would like some help in drawing the unintentional model and in creating an intentional one.