judging self


I was hoping to see someone today that I haven’t seen in months due to covid. It wasn’t an official arrangement but I thought it was as good as.
We were going to see each other at a place we both visit regularly, so the sole purpose of the visit wasn’t to see each other. So perhaps I am being overly sensitive.
Here’s my model:

C plan to see person and person does not show up or message
T I am not important to them
F worthlessness
A beat self up for giving yet another chance,, tell myself i am a mug and a fool, judge self, question everything
R feel worthless

intentional model

C plan to see person and person does not show up or message
T They are probably busy and I’m not at the top of their priority list
F acceptance
A carry on with what i am doing
R not get upset

My intentional model feels a bit forced? And I think my T line probably shouldn’t have ‘I’m not top of priority list’ in there but I’m struggling to have a positive T?