Knowing what I want…


Hi Brooke! I am new to SCS and am loving it!! I watched my first live coaching call yday and it was so so good, could relate to all the ladies in some way and it was very helpful.

I loved the point you made that if each option were to be super successful, what would you choose. My problem is, unlike the ladies in the call, I don’t quite have a ‘dream’ or know what I want to do with my life…

I struggle with knowing what I ‘want’ to do. I definitely feel like I have a purpose on this planet, to serve in some way, I just don’t know what it is yet. After college (studying civil/environmental engineering) I worked in developing countries on water and sanitation projects, thinking that might be it. I put myself on a vague path and just said yes to every opportunity that I was presented with and it went fairly well. I got to a point where I didn’t feel like I was as useful as I could be there and wasn’t learning that much so I decided to move home to get some engineering experience in a consultancy and maybe go back to development work in a few years with some experience under my belt.

When I moved home I also thought maybe I just was in the wrong field altogether and applied to study nutrition and dietetics because I’ve always had an interest in food and health. It’s a full time, 4 years bachelors degree and quite competitive to get into here in Ireland and I was very surprised when I was offered a place to start Sept 2017. I deferred it so I still have the spot to start in sept 2018, giving myself a year to work as an engineer and see if maybe I don’t really need to leave this field at all. I’ll have to decide in July if I take the spot. Also I’m super into yoga and in college I had another vague plan that I would work as an engineer and be a yoga teacher on the side or if have kids! Haha! Then I start thinking maybe there’s something else altogether I should be doing…

Sooo where I need help…I’m not sure I’d be any happier being a dietician over an engineer or yoga teacher or something else and I know now from you that it is not my job that will make me happy but me and my thinking. So then it comes down to what I ‘want’ to do…but I don’t know! And I know that’s a cop out but I just don’t! Should I work on feeling fulfilled in what I do now and that will make it clearer what I ‘want’ to do? Or is there some questions I should be asking myself to do models on?? I see myself going back to college almost out of fear of not doing it and missing the opportunity.

I really appreciate your input and sorry this is so long!

Thanks,
Aoife