Lack of confidence with protocol

I have been working on a weight loss goal since January. I’ve lost about 30 pounds with another 50 to go to my goal.

In the last two weeks, I felt like my thinking had changed to a point that I wouldn’t go off protocol without planning again. But in the last two days, I decided to eat completely off protocol.

I feel like I can’t trust myself. This pattern keeps replaying and it slows down my progress. Sometimes it is very difficult to get back to my protocol after something like this. It can take days or weeks. I want to be someone who follows their protocol and does not look to food for pleasure or relief.