life purpose

I used to have a clear vision for my life and set goals. I create goals and plans but have been having a hard time following through and give up and then start over again. Its becoming frustrating to the point where I don’t want to do anything as it hurts to keep failing and getting up. I have no energy left in me to keep trying and this is not the real me. I am having a really hard time finding my true self and my purpose.
I have tried doing models and I am not getting to the bottom of this self sabotage. Please help!