Looking backward instead of forward

I’ve always been so good about expecting that the best is still to come. And for most of my life, that was true. Lately, though, looking back in Timehop each day, I find myself longing for the days of 5 and 10 years ago. I’ll be 40 in a few months – so I’m still very young! My kids are 12, 9 and 7 – and I adore them and have enjoyed every stage. But I miss them being little.

I also made a lot of money for awhile (2015-2019 in my direct sales business), and now I don’t anymore. I’m trying to figure out my next steps in my career and I feel a little lost. I find myself longing for those days when I made a lot of money, and wishing I’d handled the extra money differently.

We moved across the country last year and I LOVE where we live now – but it’s been a huge change. And my best friend of 30+ years removed herself from my life when I moved, mostly over different beliefs re: covid, I think. But she never made it clear – just … left.

So, it’s been a lot to navigate, and I want to still believe my best days are ahead. A thriving career, a happy life here filled with new friends and adventures, a wonderful family life as my kids continue to grow and my husband and I build a life here.

But it’s hard to believe that some days, which is of course a terrible feeling! Throw in all that’s happening in the world right now, and I just feel …. quite down, for the first time in my life, really.

Just wondering how I can best coach myself to look forward, not back. I do KNOW I can create the life I want, and that good things take time, and we all go through valleys … but whew.

Thank you!!