I’ve always been so good about expecting that the best is still to come. And for most of my life, that was true. Lately, though, looking back in Timehop each day, I find myself longing for the days of 5 and 10 years ago. I’ll be 40 in a few months – so I’m still very young! My kids are 12, 9 and 7 – and I adore them and have enjoyed every stage. But I miss them being little.
I also made a lot of money for awhile (2015-2019 in my direct sales business), and now I don’t anymore. I’m trying to figure out my next steps in my career and I feel a little lost. I find myself longing for those days when I made a lot of money, and wishing I’d handled the extra money differently.
We moved across the country last year and I LOVE where we live now – but it’s been a huge change. And my best friend of 30+ years removed herself from my life when I moved, mostly over different beliefs re: covid, I think. But she never made it clear – just … left.
So, it’s been a lot to navigate, and I want to still believe my best days are ahead. A thriving career, a happy life here filled with new friends and adventures, a wonderful family life as my kids continue to grow and my husband and I build a life here.
But it’s hard to believe that some days, which is of course a terrible feeling! Throw in all that’s happening in the world right now, and I just feel …. quite down, for the first time in my life, really.
Just wondering how I can best coach myself to look forward, not back. I do KNOW I can create the life I want, and that good things take time, and we all go through valleys … but whew.