Losing my mind – lp

Hi, I’ve been practicing and mentally rehearsing my new model and I feel like I am losing my mind. Joe dispenza talks about how changing actually is like withdrawal from drugs and I feel like every moment is a rollercoaster between my old model of hating myself and my new model of higher energy and love. I have some reeeeally hopeless thoughts when it swings the other way. It’s wild! Is this normal lol?