Lots of Anger


Hi Brooke, today was an unusal day for me. I was pretty angry the entire day. I was trying to watch myself and repeat thoughts such as I’m choosing to be upset. I’m choosing to be annoyed with this human. I can connect with word choosing because it helps me take responsibility for my thoughts. I also kept saying to myself that nothing has gone wrong all is okay. At points it was anger, then annoyance, then saddness. I also had to work at a second job and I came home angry again so I ate some chips and a small couple of fork fulls of cake. I haven’t felt like this in a long time. I know the eating was buffering, but I’m not focused on controlling my eating at the moment. It’s interesting how my mind wants to go to the victim mentality very quickly. I guess my question is where do you find compassion for yourself in this? I wanted to move out of anger, but I also didn’t want to. I know I created a shitty day for myself, but at the same time I don’t care. Maybe I’ve reconnected with my feelings again?