Love and relationships


I really want someone to talk to.
Maybe a relationship or new friends.

I don’t have many close friends in my life.
I do have a lot of new business relationships.

My boyfriend lives long distance. We have been dating 8 months.

Have never met in real life or had video chat or audio chat.

We only text and we both are really loving to each other.

He hasn’t asked me if I wanted to ever talk on a phone or video chat although I wish he did.

And whenever we had conversations around that he says no or he’s hesitant to do that.

It’s been 3-4 days that we haven’t texted much cause he’s busy and stuff to do.

I been managing my mind and telling myself: He gets to do what he wants. I don’t want to force or control him. He gets to decide how he wants to live. Yeah this part of me like letting him decide how he wants to take this relationship moving forward.

But the other part of me wants to talk to him. I really wanted to be in relationship and connection with someone. I really wanted to talk to someone, have conversations about life, about future and talk funny.

Yeah but I don’t really get to do that because he doesn’t want to do it and I don’t want to force it.

I don’t know what to do anymore.

Yeah I do want him to do whatever he wants and he gets to decide.

Another part of me truly wanted to be with someone, have conversations, cuddle and make memories.

Yeah I know relationships are just thoughts about the other person.

I am willing to do the work on my thoughts but what about the experiences that I really wanted to have with someone.

I just don’t know what to do anymore.

I also have a fear that soon we will both stop talking or he will lose interest towards me or we both with go out own ways and forget about each other and yeah we won’t have the relationship anymore.

That’s sad. Cause I do want to be with him. I do want to be in love with this guy and have future with him.

What do I do when I want to have experiences and talk to him and when he doesn’t want to do it or he’s just busy with his career.